Why must I get back to this low point the day before Otakuthon? EURGH!
So basically, I am going to be running a convention. This is a well known fact among a lot of people I know now. Well, this is a small con and all, and on the same weekend as fan expo, and people have lots of excuses, and everything like that.
So here’s the problem, I am losing money because of this convention. The government gave me a grant of $3000 and once i get the second half after the summer is over. The first $1500 has already been spent, and for most people in the prgram the last $1500 is their moeny to keep. Not in my case. Because our attandence looks like it’s going to be low, few vendors, several backing out and so many people squeezing in free passes because of them being vendors, media or whatever, I can maybe break even cost wise. Just maybe!
That’s if I’m lucky. Otherwise, the rest of the stuff that has yet to be paid, is coming out of my personal savings. I will be losing all the money in my bank account savings, which I have had since I was about 9 years old. That’s several thousand dollars.
I’m going into grade 12….I’m losing all those college/university savings.
Now here’s the fun part. I can’t. get. a. fucking. job. I live in a small rual area. There’s a cute little village near me with lots of p[laces to work, even a tim hortons, DQ and McDonalds (which is avoided anyway because my mom doesn’t want me working for the boss there, not that they were interested in hiring me anyway). I’m 17 now, when I was 15 I applied at DQ, mentioning I was interested in cake decorating and possibly the food industry. They told me, and my twin sister, that they were not hiring. Ok. So next year we try again. Same story. But this time, I talk to a few people, the prettiest girls in the area being some, they tell me that a few days later the boss lady starts talking to them and hires them on the spot. And, they did tell me that she seems to only hire girls she finds pretty. So yeah, she finds me and my twin sister ugly. Great reason not to hire me.
Only after my sister worked at mcdonald’s did she get the job due to experience and hardly any training needed. My sister gets the blame for every little thing, even if it clearly wan’t her.
Then there’s other places. They get my resume, get interested, then they meet me and instantly are not. Why? Because around new adults and new people, I get extremely shy and nervous. It’s not an impressive point about me so I never get hired. I only got my (terrible) job last year because my aunt owned the shop, and she hated having me as an employee because I’d get to shy to talk to people sometimes and would mess up a lot (she blamed me for a lot more than I did though, I only messed up by not saying certain lines to promote things).
So, I finally get a job interview this monday. FINALLY! And it’s at fabricland, and I’ve always wanted a job there, but they would never get back to me, but they finally did. The interview went great! I was stoked and feeling like I totally got the job. I told them during the interview that I was in this government program and couldnt work for a while, and that for the next two weekends (this one included) I was not avalible because I was gone. They told me it was fine and they probably wouldn’t know if I was hired until september anyway. PERFECT! That would work out so perfectly.Because of my lack of money I could just work on week nights and weekends a lot and make up the money again, I was feeling good.
I got a call today. They want me to come in for first training this Saturday. I CAN’T. I asked my friend who works there is it’s like the initial test to see if I would be a good employee to see if I’m reliable. It is. I basically got excited finding out I got the job, just to lose it in that same minute.
This is so fucking ridiculous. At my rate, and with my luck and with everyone in the area already set and not wanting to hire me, I can’t get a job, and I won’t have any money for college. I’m basically fucked over really badly.
So there goes my college possibilities most likely, even if I got scholarships.
Idk whats going to happen with my future right now :’(
The convention is called COTICON. It’s located in Cornwall, between Ottawa and Montreal.
Guys, this convention is in my town. It would really help if you could spread this around. I’ll be an artist/vendor at the convention.
We need people to run panels, come in as artists, and hopefully for some people to donate prizes. I’ll be donating prizes for the masquerade, but really, there should be more.
I’ll be at Otakuthon this weekend, and if you are an artist who would like to attend or donate prizes please come and speak to me. I can collect prizes and even offer a few people a place to stay/ride for the convention. It’s one day thing.
If you can spare a day, August 30th, to be precise, please come down to Cornwall and visit Coticon. We just lost an Ottawa convention, and this one could easily fill the void and improve upon what once was. Plus, Rie is a great lady and I would HATE to see her lose all this money for her education!